STATIC. we are no longer one.

drrr.....i'm tireedddd. its so exhausting.
two papers tomorrow and i hope it wont kill me.
i am just not in the mood to study fer my papers tmw.
i did lah...but i need to readdd uppp...
i decided to risk myself by studying development only.
cause i cant absorb my environmental stuffs. LOL.

accounts would be okay i guess.
but the 4 hours break in between the paper i am gonna
stop zhenjun from going anywhere and teach me working capital effect.
haha. he got very pretty brains.
cos he is very smart. lol.
and i guess mr lee's magic notes would do us good.
as he summarised everything for us already.
ten year series down. and i shall really pray fer the best.
to all in 4c and 4d taking accounts, i wish you all daa best.
lets make mr lee proud. cos he has done soo much fer us.
LOL.

i shall force myself to study again after this.
i shall take a break from geography.
and i guess i shall just re-read the notes i made fer geog before sleeping.
lol. cos it will make me go to sleep. lalalala.
and i keep sneezing today. allergic to something i guess. urgh.
frustrating. lol.

spent an hour talking to my bestfriend today on the fone.
she was studying non-stop. pity her.
but we shall buy our contact lenses with qeela tmw k darls?
and friday, we shall go shopping together with my mum. yay!
then 22nd, i'll be chilling out at esplanade counting the stars.
lol. i guess its a good way to kill all the stress. lol.
like what fauzee said. " kalau nak tgk bintang, tengok dari bawah block.
bukan tengok dari atas block" lol.
those who know me, would understand what it means. haha.

i miss him telling me to shut up whenever i talk abt somebody else.
lol. kill me for saying this. but.... errr... nevermind. lol.

after o's, i shall rot at home ..
spend time with my bestest friend.
and my wonderful grrlfriends.
and go for free gitar lessons thanks to "mr keys" lol.
shop like crazy. watch movies till i get broke.
go to the gym. and swim. lol.
cos i have been gaining weight since the exam started.
chocolates and coffee is making me gain weight.
and i shalll lose all of them soon. lol.

after thursday, i shall be a happy person
as i'm only left with science mcq paper which needs practice and studying.
but at least, it is not that heavy. lol.
and i shall scream and shout that its OVER. LOL.
but the results wont be over till next march. haha.
thats the scary part.. lol.

i shall study hard for geog. but my mind is always somewhere else.
focusss! focusss! i stil have time to blog summore. ahaha.
i must tell myself to focus focus. for the lassst blooooddyy time.
my brain is so degil. it dont want to follow what i tell it to do. lol.
kedegilan membawa padah. lol.

i cant wait to shopp. the word shopping makes my eyes all glittery
and i am feeling excited. lol.
i dont mind getting a purple/ pink dress. lol.
but the date is a bit to rushing as it is two days after our o's.
many are not prepared fer it yet. lol. and we paid 55 bucks fer this prom night.
and i am gonna make sure i am gonna enjoy myself on that night.
away from everything. and the camera is definitely a MUST. lol.

hmm. anyways what are you guys gonna do after the o's.
for the holidays i mean... i guess most are gonna work?
i want to, but i got school in january. lol.
it sounds pathetic. but i guess there would be loads of fun in school as well.
i cross my fingers and hope. lol.

and i should have found out the truth long ago.
lol. i was led astray all along.
but blame me for being so naive to believe every word to say.
now, that your grrlfriend has left you for another guy.
i dont know you.
my biggest mistake was to know you.
and my biggest mistake was to trust you.
the worse thing was i still held on to the relationship despite all problems.
that was my mistake on my part.
and now, you are one different person. a changed person.
a person whom i dont even know...but i guess ppl change.
and you did.
although u promised me that you wont.
but so what?
to you promises mean nothing.
and i shall do the same.
so dont blame me if i found your replacement.
in fact i already did.
and not blame me for not giving you a chance.
cos i did.
its now up to you to find reality.
cos my presence wont change the situation.
all the best.

fanaaaa.