i fell for you at the wrong time.

lol. accounts paper was over yesterday. yay yay..
and the mcq was kinda easy. cos it was from the tys.
i am one lucky grrl as i did them before gg out of the house. haha.
alhamdulilah. this raise my chance to get at least a b3 for my poa.
insyallah.
after poa, we rushed off home.
ape lagi.. kita JALAN RAYA LAHH..
haha. kempunan kita suma tak jalan raya.
and i thank zaki for organising this jalan rya thing.lol.
being grrls, we are always late. lol.
faris and wawan were sindiring us..
"cepat seh korang sampai." bad right they all. haha.
we sat down and waited fer the others to arrive.
there were others who arrived later than us. lol.

















while waiting, suddenly my fone started vibrating.
and i saw the name. [fauzeedaex]* on my screen. lol.
i dint smile. i dint jump. i was shocked. still recovering from it. haha.
i picked up and he sounded cheerful.
he: i just went to ur frenster and......
me: eh oh... haha..tengok jer frenster org..
he: now, i dont hafta worry anymore cos.....
me: lol. u dont doubt me anymore can tak?
haha. he ajaked me to go out with him this wednesday.
watch harry potter wif him. lol.
it was his idea. not mine. haha.
and harap harap, this time, kita jadi jumpa...

















after every one arrived at the meeting pt, we set off to bkt panjang
to shiqah's house. shiqah and zaki. haha. cutest couple i've seen.
four years together and still happy together. hehe.
snap pics . chatted. ate kueh mueh. and air ape entah zaki bikin.
lol. grrlfrens got togther. this time there were 8 of us.
FULL ATTENDANCE. haha.
i had great fun. away from all my problems.
away from books at home. duhh! its almost overrr.. lol.
after shiqah's place, we went to fuad's place at bkt panjang area.
the guys wanted us to walk. and you know its super far... haha.
but at last we took the bus. haha. thanks fer beeingg sooo
understanding ehh korangs. lol.
at fuad's place, we took pics again.
ate and drank. yana made plans to go out on my birthday.
to sentosa. lol. sumhow like a gathering..
u plan eh... aku dtg jer.. hehehe. lol.
fuad took so long to dress up. and we were very hungryyy!
lol. none of the houses cooked anything fer us.
stomachs were making noises. ppl were rumbling. lol.

















took the LRT and went off to isha's place. wowwww.
at last we got something decent to eat.
mee siam and nuggets. fuyoo. so niceee!
and faris curikk most of thenuggets.
and he went around stealing chocolates from ppl's houses.
haha. lol.
by that time, it was already nine plus. we had to chopp chopp/
cos yana had to go home early.
but..its raya time. we are supposed to haveee funnn. lol.
after isha's place, they went to my place.
ate nuggets again...lol. muka suma tukar jadi nuggets sehh..lol.

















then, it was alraedy 10.15pm. we walked over to wani's plce
which is 100 steps from my block. lol.
we live soo near to each other. hehe. thats the fun part.
save transport cost. lol. geography shitness. haha.
choopp choopp again. 15 minutes at her place then we are off to zack's place.
wahh. we eat again. i had to ssqueezeee food inside my stomach.
his nenek took the trouble to cook fer us.
and i think its best if i taste a bit lah. tak baik lahh kan...
and i ate my fav fruiit.. watermelon. lol.
his place is sooo pretty lah.
well decorated. and he got very pretty young sisters
and a cute younger brother.
snapp pics at his house and we are off to yana's place.


















we took a bus to yew tee mrt .
and waited fer another bus to go to yana's house.
lol. but there were no signs of buses.
so they suggest we walk to save time.
farah was already groaning in pain.
i dint wear heels but my leg was aching already. lol.
we had no choice but to walk.
a fifteen minutes walk.
isha walked barefooted. lol.
she was so cute in green. lol.
but she dint flirt with me at all.
cos salman was there. lol
jgn marah isha..hehehe.

















reached yana's place at 1145pm.
poor dini she has a paper to sit for tmw.
but she's smart. and i am sure she'll do well.
thanks fer letting me hold you whenever i wanted to fall.
haha. loveee ya deen.
again, we ate. lol. i stuffed food again. lol.
sumbat jer lah.. tu pasal nawi fana dok rumah..
diet sikit. heheh. lol.
ppl were very sleepy.
the legs were killing us larr...
the guys still wanted to continue. haha.
they arent tired thats why.

















fauzee msged me. i promise him that i would go back by12
but i dint. lol. cannot be blamed. haha.
we lost track of time.
we left yana's place at 12.30am. lol. suma muka ngantk.
most of us that is. lol.
faris was being so gentle-manly. lol.
he hailed cabs for us to get home.
it was the first time i saw him so caring. lol.
in other words, he is never ccaring. lol.
no lah. not until like that.
he said." korang pompan. jalan baik baik"
lol. see. manly sikit faris ni. lol.

















in the taxi, fauzee called me. i know i was late already.
lol.
he waited fer me to get off the cab.
he temaned me up the lift alone.
i appreaciate it. really really.
he waited fer me to cuci pinggan and bersihkan my face. lol.
and he called me back.
and we did some serious talking
which almost ended up wif one of us getting hurt.


















and luckily i kept my mouth shut. lol.
you know why he dint call me fer the past week?
he had a GRRLFREND.
shocked eh? so was i.
it explains his missing fer that week.
he: u. i nak bilang u benda tapi i takot u'll hate me.
me: ape dia. bilang uhh..
he: i takot will carik lelaki lain.
me: tak lah.. tak... ape....
lol. then he told me everything.
for a moment i felt like crying. but i held back my tears.
i told him i was okay when i wasnt.
i know i lied but its a white lie. haha. tipu sunat. hehe.
i felt betrayed and disappointed in him. i did.
but i kept quiet. i dint wanna make things worse.
i thought he would be waiting fer me after my exams.
but looks likeh he turned the tables around.
" mestinya kau cari pengganti diriku saja"
i think this line is meant fer him.
indeed i was shocked and hurt.
he just contacted me aweek ago and now, he has a grrlfren.
just like what???
lol.
he said he wanted to break up with her cos of her perangai.
but, he can change her if she wanst too.
i dont want to come in between both of them.
and i wont blame him if he chooses to stay with her.
we've crossed so many obstacles.
misunderstandings happen so often between us.
and i wonder how it would be like.

i care for him. i do.
but he hasnt offically broken up with her/
how sure am i that things wont happen again.
i'm not sure myself.
i'm afraid of getting hurt.
i cant face his lies if he lies to me anymore.
is this relationship worth a second chance?
thats something i have to think abt.

now i feel lke i fell in love at the wrong time.
lol.
or mayb i should avoid him fer things to get better between both of dem.
i am jealous. i admit it eyy...
lol. but what am i to do..
just let time tell everything.
and i shall see if we will meet next wednesday
or will he leave me waiting there again?
will he leave me like he did before?

i know i'm being very negative.
but i just hate getting hurt.
it hurts to fall down and nobody's around.
mayb its a challenge fer me to face up to my fears.
but i'll avoid him if it means happiness fer him and his grrlfren.
i'm willing to take a step back.
its not that i dont love him or anything.
i do.
but love is abt sacrifice isnt it?




















anyways, i thank everyone fer all the fun we had yesterday.
i had so much fun.
jumpa korang pat sentosa ey nanti...
bawak hadiah besar untok aku. lol.
takecare ppl.
i'll decide soon enough.
thanks fer reading and listening.
=)
hearttt everbodyy..
*fanaa`