hey peeps.
i am back.
just feeling not at tha ryte mode.
maybe is my imagination...
i dunno...
like i said..
i dun mind him hurting me..
he seems so busy nowadays.
i feel left behind.
sumtimes...i wish tha whole werld was mine.
i miss him.
i miss tha memories we had.
but now,, to meet him is already difficult.
both are busy wif so many things.
i just want to know that things are gonna be okay.
i scratched it again.
i cant help it.
i feel helpless.
i feel useless.
all i can gif him is my love.
i want his love.
i want him to be tha person who i wiill share my hopes and dreams wif.
i feel so lonely.
i feel scared.
i feel insercue.
as i write this..
tears are rolling down my cheeks.
like i said.
i feel useless and helpless.
theres nothing that i can do abt it.
all i can do is seep and weep.
and remember "TILL DEATH DO US PART"
Friday, April 22, 2005
//*CREATION: BY ME*//
CREATION: FARHANA.
DEDICATED TO: U KNOW WHO.
TITLE: THANK YOU.
Thanks for helping me through my hard times.
I couldnt even pay you back in dimes.
Giving me the courage to be strong.
Telling me that i was not wrong.
You were therre when i wanted to give up.
You were therre when i felt FUCKED UP.
I felt great after 'talking to you'
And that had gotten me through.
You are a wonderful human being.
Who have wonderful thoughts and feelings.
Never i regretted knowing you.
Even after what we've been through.
Therrefore, i dedicate this poem to you.
As a token of appreciation from me to you.
Thanks ya sweet human being.
With wonderful thoughts and feelings.
//FANA*18.03.04*//
ps: THANKS FER EVERYTHING.
I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH.
IT WUD ALWAYS BE KEPT IN MY HEART.....
DEDICATED TO: U KNOW WHO.
TITLE: THANK YOU.
Thanks for helping me through my hard times.
I couldnt even pay you back in dimes.
Giving me the courage to be strong.
Telling me that i was not wrong.
You were therre when i wanted to give up.
You were therre when i felt FUCKED UP.
I felt great after 'talking to you'
And that had gotten me through.
You are a wonderful human being.
Who have wonderful thoughts and feelings.
Never i regretted knowing you.
Even after what we've been through.
Therrefore, i dedicate this poem to you.
As a token of appreciation from me to you.
Thanks ya sweet human being.
With wonderful thoughts and feelings.
//FANA*18.03.04*//
ps: THANKS FER EVERYTHING.
I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH.
IT WUD ALWAYS BE KEPT IN MY HEART.....
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
//*CREATION OF MY OWN.//*
HEY..
haf been feeling dwn lately..
so i wrote this..
TITLE: SO NEAR YET SO FAR.
baby, it always has been us.
and i know it always has.
i know u are near.
coz if u aren't..thats wad i fear.
i have always have u on my mind.
coz baby is u that i found.
i miss tha memories we had together.
and i hope it wud last fereva.
i fear of losing you.
coz baby i wudnt know what i''ll do.
you are tha one in my heart.
till death do us part.
i have never been sure b4..
and i wud fite my rights for.
you you and only you.
yeah baby.thats so true..
haf been feeling dwn lately..
so i wrote this..
TITLE: SO NEAR YET SO FAR.
baby, it always has been us.
and i know it always has.
i know u are near.
coz if u aren't..thats wad i fear.
i have always have u on my mind.
coz baby is u that i found.
i miss tha memories we had together.
and i hope it wud last fereva.
i fear of losing you.
coz baby i wudnt know what i''ll do.
you are tha one in my heart.
till death do us part.
i have never been sure b4..
and i wud fite my rights for.
you you and only you.
yeah baby.thats so true..
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
//*moodless.*//
hey peeps.
i am back blogging again.
kk..listen to this k..
your words-worth just as much as dirrt.
and i am tha one looking like tha jerk.
no one knows tha truth-tha tings u haf said and done.
so go and BITCH to all ur frens.
say half true stories and just PRETEND.
you say that u are fine but u are lying to urself..
and EVERYONE ELSE.
BEWAREE...
YOU KNOW WHO U ARE,
//FANA*//
i am back blogging again.
kk..listen to this k..
your words-worth just as much as dirrt.
and i am tha one looking like tha jerk.
no one knows tha truth-tha tings u haf said and done.
so go and BITCH to all ur frens.
say half true stories and just PRETEND.
you say that u are fine but u are lying to urself..
and EVERYONE ELSE.
BEWAREE...
YOU KNOW WHO U ARE,
//FANA*//
Monday, April 11, 2005
*FRIENDS*
FRIENDS DONT LIE.
FRIENDS ARE NOT MEAN.
FRIENDS DONT KICK U ASIDE WHEN THEY ARE HAPPY.
I REMEMBER WHAT U DID TO ME.
I KEPT MUM.
I KEPT U AS MY FREN.
I TREAT U AS MY FREN.
BUT U ARE JUST THA SAME AS THA OTHERRS.
DISAPPOINTING.
WHY.
WHY.
AHHHHHH,.
FUCK OFF.
FRIENDS ARE NOT MEAN.
FRIENDS DONT KICK U ASIDE WHEN THEY ARE HAPPY.
I REMEMBER WHAT U DID TO ME.
I KEPT MUM.
I KEPT U AS MY FREN.
I TREAT U AS MY FREN.
BUT U ARE JUST THA SAME AS THA OTHERRS.
DISAPPOINTING.
WHY.
WHY.
AHHHHHH,.
FUCK OFF.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
*LOVE HIM TO BITS AND PIECES*
hey ppl..i am back blogging again..hmm..yesterday was caring day..hahakz..i had fun collecting newspapers..and..it was tiring..my legs are breaking ryte now..is cramping up..but nevamind..at least i did a gd deed..hehee..yesterday..after CIP.. i went home..nid to meet dearr..is been a week since i last met him..and tha 1 wk is definitely hell fer me..is hard..seriously hard..but then..i hafta perservere and haf a positif mindset..i tink?met him at bukit batok westmall..and went to watch a movie called "the pacifier"..tha movie was vewi funny..and we laughed our heart out..i felt happy..being wif him..
i am happy wif him by my side..
he pwomised that i wud be tha onli one in his heart.
i pwomised that i wud wait fer him to end his NS and start werking..
and INSYALLAH.
afta that..we wud lead our lives together as one..
i love him so much.
no matter what obstacles i hafta overcome..
i know one thing..
that i love him
JUST HIM*
good or bad times..i wud be wif my dear..
coz i love himm..
tha love of my life..
and fereva..it wud be..
i hope our dreams and promises wud come true dearr..
i love u so much.
*MUUUAAAKKKZZZZ*
i am happy wif him by my side..
he pwomised that i wud be tha onli one in his heart.
i pwomised that i wud wait fer him to end his NS and start werking..
and INSYALLAH.
afta that..we wud lead our lives together as one..
i love him so much.
no matter what obstacles i hafta overcome..
i know one thing..
that i love him
JUST HIM*
good or bad times..i wud be wif my dear..
coz i love himm..
tha love of my life..
and fereva..it wud be..
i hope our dreams and promises wud come true dearr..
i love u so much.
*MUUUAAAKKKZZZZ*
Thursday, April 07, 2005
*_____FLY_______*
i am back posting again..today was a vewi freaking day seh..i got scolded by miss teo..coz i said her lesson was boring..hahakz.
there is someting that is bothering my mind..
but..maybe is something to do wif my innerself..
wanna cry and cry till therres no tmw.
how i wish i could do that.
it worries me.
it worries me like crazzyy.
but
no matter what.
i wud perservere,
doing what i think is ryte.
although my heart is bleeding vewi badly..
i am sure it will bleed further.
but...
i walk alone.
i walk alone.
//*FANA*//
there is someting that is bothering my mind..
but..maybe is something to do wif my innerself..
wanna cry and cry till therres no tmw.
how i wish i could do that.
it worries me.
it worries me like crazzyy.
but
no matter what.
i wud perservere,
doing what i think is ryte.
although my heart is bleeding vewi badly..
i am sure it will bleed further.
but...
i walk alone.
i walk alone.
//*FANA*//
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
*||HAVE U EVER REALLY LOVED A WOMAN?||*
To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep insideHear every thought -
see every dreamN' give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
To really love a woman
Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: http://www.bryanadams.com/onlineshop/library/lyricsarchive-haveyoueverreallylovedawoman.htm
To understand her - you gotta know her deep insideHear every thought -
see every dreamN' give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
To really love a woman
Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: http://www.bryanadams.com/onlineshop/library/lyricsarchive-haveyoueverreallylovedawoman.htm
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
*life..*
hey therre.i am back blogging in again.
again..feeling helpless and lonely.
i dunno whats in me this days.
easily agitated.
easily jealous.
i cnt help it can i?
it hurts.
it hurts.
will anybody understand what i am going thru?
i just keep quiet abt everything.
i dun wanna voice IT out.
i cant.
but what i know is.
i love my sayang loads.
is been a year.
a year of a long journey ahead.
i am scared,.
too scared to loose him.
i love him so much.'
god...
i swear..
is true..
i am hurt deeply.
you stabbed me in my heart.
all i can do is seep and weep.
but i remember "till death do us part"
//FANA*18.03.04*// till eternity.
i love u.
i love u.
i love u.
a picture of u and me.
it wud always be.
again..feeling helpless and lonely.
i dunno whats in me this days.
easily agitated.
easily jealous.
i cnt help it can i?
it hurts.
it hurts.
will anybody understand what i am going thru?
i just keep quiet abt everything.
i dun wanna voice IT out.
i cant.
but what i know is.
i love my sayang loads.
is been a year.
a year of a long journey ahead.
i am scared,.
too scared to loose him.
i love him so much.'
god...
i swear..
is true..
i am hurt deeply.
you stabbed me in my heart.
all i can do is seep and weep.
but i remember "till death do us part"
//FANA*18.03.04*// till eternity.
i love u.
i love u.
i love u.
a picture of u and me.
it wud always be.
Monday, April 04, 2005
*wonder..ponder..*
hey therre..is been a long time since i blogged in..hmm..tha week has been okay..my relationship has been ok i guess.hmm..now..i could feel tha hecticness in my time...
so terok.
teachers are pulling us back every single day.
ended geog lesson today t 5.30pm.
wahhz...tired.
my eyes vewi tired leh..
haiz.dunno what to write.
then got hw summore.
haiya..
nid to work hard
enter nanyang poly
get an education,.
secure my life.
till then.
i am off to *FIX* MY LIFE.
haf u?
//FANA//*
so terok.
teachers are pulling us back every single day.
ended geog lesson today t 5.30pm.
wahhz...tired.
my eyes vewi tired leh..
haiz.dunno what to write.
then got hw summore.
haiya..
nid to work hard
enter nanyang poly
get an education,.
secure my life.
till then.
i am off to *FIX* MY LIFE.
haf u?
//FANA//*
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