new year resolutions.

*fana and joelin.*


*harrharr.*

i'm feeling groggy and tired cos i fell sick yesterday night.
haha. i was down with a fever and i dint even tell my mum abt it.
the gastric was killing me yesterday.
then, things got worse when i was down with a running nose
and fever. haha. just my luck on new year's eve. lol.

yesterday, went out to watch the promise.
the story was superb.
however, the story was sad at the same time. haha.
after watching the story, i feel like flying. haha.
the story thought me abt courage, trust and true love.
someting which i thought dint exist in the world.
but, i realised that true love does exist.
only at the right place and at the right time..
at least i believed in something already. haha.

maybe it was the last time i cud enjoy before school starts.
thats so sad. i want one more time to go out again. lol.
when school starts, i'll have no life. haha.
even better, i dont wanna go to school.
maybe i shall even skip classes. haha. i dont really care.
i'm doing this fer my mom and not fer myself.
and i really feel like shit following whatever she tells me to do.
and i guess the saying of " follow your heart wherever it takes you to"
is definitely true. cos you wont be happy if ur under the shadows
of somebody else's dreams.

my sis waited fer me at the mrt to walk home together yesterday.
and qamarul was with her.
he sent us back home. it was really sweet.
cos he stayed at eunos. lol. he had to travel so far just to send her back.
thanks qamarul . happy werking at the factory. haha.

before i even realise it, time passes by so fast.
its already 31st december, new years' eve.
tomorrow would be a start of a new year, 2006.
and i'm sure next year would be a year full of
challenges and obstacles again.
thats what life is all abt isnt it?
this is gonna be a really long post.
cos i'm gonna reflect on the things that happened.
the ppl whom made year 2005 so meaningful fer me.
bare with the lengthy-nesss. hehe.
i got many ppl to thank. lol




this year, i had a stronger bond with my gerlfriends.
all 7 of dem, we form grrlfriends'05. its been a year since the "group"
was formed.
though times were tough fer us, misunderstandings do happen.
and i'm glad that we held on and did not go separate ways.
you gerls are the best cos you stood by me through the
toughest times of mine.
times where i broke up with amrul and fauzee. you guys were there.
telling me its not the end of the world yet. the hugging,
kissing, touching of legs(frm isha)
haha could never be forgotten. i love you gerls to bits. you made my year so incredible.

all seven of you deserve credits fer being such wonderful ppl.
i'm gonna start with my best friend for a total of 4years



farah.-*
thankyou for being my bestfriend fer the past four years. the things we shared will never
be forgotten. you have been the closest pal to me.
we knw each other deepest secrets.
we knw each other so well that we can complete each others' sentences and i guess that
made us the very best of friends.
thankyou fer standing by me thru my hardest setbacks.
the breakups, the familyproblems. i would always remember you fer being a patient,understanding and kind
person. you never fail to make me laugh and smile everyday.
thankyou for being one wonderful bestfriend.
i love you so much. <333


liyana-*
yana, the partner in crime. we fool around so much at the back of the class that we always get scolded. haha. the alpha beta and gamma things we used to laugh abt. haha.
thankyou yana fer being there when i need you. the advices you gave me, the scolding you gave me. i thank you fer all that. haha. it was fer my own good. thankyou fer sharing and caring so much. you made me laugh like a crazy gerl everyday and i gt u and fiqa to thank fer that.
once again, i thank you fer making a difference in my life though we have only started
to get close this year.
i love you so much.<333


ishaa.-*
isha, the lesbian partner of everyone. haha. a person whom i can confide with at any point of time. thank you fer all the advices you gave me, telling me to hold on and be strong when i was
at a point that i wanted to give up. without you, i wont knw where i would be right now.
thankyou fer all the things we share, the stories, the relationships. and i'm glad that u and salman
are still going on strong after over a year of being together. i did tell you to tell him that you loved him, and not love him in silence, only from afar. and see, you guys are two inseperable
lovebirds. haha. i can tell u to do it, but i cant do it fermyself. haha.
thanks fer all the kisses and rabe-ing. thankyou fer making a difference.
i loveee you.<333


aqilah-*
aqilah is like the mother of all of us. she's matured and strong. therefore, i respect you alot.
thankyou fer standing by me thru my dumps. telling me to stay strong. not to give up.
i thankyou fer being at city hall coincidentally when u saw me crying and just gave me a hug.
i can never thank you enough fer all you have done. fer all the scoldings, gossips, laughter.
all the best with you and mr keys. =))
love yaa. <333


syazwani-*
a person with a great laugh. her laughter is surrounded everywhere and her laughter is infectious.
hahaha. thankyou fer understanding my situation fer the past year. we went thru the same shits
together. the stories we shared, the laughter, the tears andthe secrets. thankyou fer trusting me
and making me get to knw u better. i thank you fer being such a wonderful friend who can make me laugh abt my problems. dont deny, but ur one gorgeous chic with great attitude.
prince a.z.i will realise it one day.
i love you.<333


dini-*
a gerl who has smart brains, a sweet smile and very kind. she's deenee. haha.
thankyou fer being there with me all the while. i cud never thank you fer all the hugs we
exchanged. the hugs always made me feel better. the names we created together. the stories
we always share. i thank god fer making me know you better this year. thankyou fer telling
me that it isnt wrong to love somebody. all the best fer ur first 3mths.
i love you deen.<333


atika-*
somebody strong and cute. thankyou fer being there through all my dumps.
the cries we shared, the laughter and the stories. i wont even wanna trade it fer a million dollars.
i treasure everything that we created together. the fun-recesses we use to have.
the singing of songs together wud never be erased from my memory. stay strong and u wud always have us to fall back on. u'll knw what i mean.
love ya lotsa.<333

shoutouts to gerlfriends 2005
I LOVE YOU GERLS TO BITS AND PIECES AND IONS AND MOLECULES AND ATOMS.

next up, would be my ex's.
though its over, i still need to thank dem. haha.
see, i'm so nice. lol.

amrul hakim.-*

thirteen months of relationship and you left me hanging like that.
though it was hard, but i've learnt to accept that you had change so much that i dont knw you.
till now, you still dint realise that you changed and everything to you was just a fake.
however, 10 months was the month of heaven fer both of us. no fights, no misunderstandings.
i thankyou fer making me part of your life fer this 10months( the 3 months, the problems started. lol.) you made me understand life, love and hope. the stories that we shared, the laughter, the smiles we exchanged in school. however, things aint the same anymore and i knw
that nobody is to blame. whatever happens was a blessing in disguise. i've never hated you.
but i would continue praying that you would change one day. i thank you fer bringing me life fer those months, though it lasted only fer a while.
but memories surrender. i dont knw who you are now.
thankyou fer making me realise and understand things.
"aku harap engkau akan dipimpin ke jalan yg benar."


muhammad fauzee.-*

three years of friendship, one mth of relationship. time are tough fer us and things definitely have changed. however, i thank you again fer accompanying me in the late nights. the conversation which would last fer many many hours.(for the start) haha. thankyou fer
making me realise what life is and not making me give up hope in whatever that i'm doing.
i cant thank you enough fer making me a strong person with all ur advices and stories.
thankyou fer making me love you once, though it was only fer a short period of time.
and it was unrequited love on your side. many things happened after the breakup, but i guess
it wasnt our destiny to be together. however, i hope the friendship would last if one of us
would make the first move to say something to each other. haha. but i guess time would heal all the wounds.

okay. okay. i knw u all getting bored listening to all this. haha.
but then i got three more credits to make . haha.



amirah.-*
miraaaa. haha. friendship which started in sec2 till now. thankyou fer listening to my stories online. haha. thanks fer asking me how was my day like and how are things going on.
thankyou fer being sweet at all times, just by smiling, it healed my pain fer a moment.
thankyou fer being a great listener and a great shopping partner. lol.
may we have fun in school next week together.
if i on MC u oso on MC okay? LOL.
i loveee ya.<333




kimberly.-*
kimberly dada. haha. my best classmate. thankyou fer sitting beside me in class. tolerating my nonsense and laughter. haha.
i knw my laughter is infectious cos you'll start laughing as well.
thankyou fer sharing and trusting me with all your stories.
the gossips, the "hello" we exchanged though we sit beside each other. haha. the cookies
we made and eat in class. i cant thank you enough. telling me to stay strong and stop my
wrist cutting activities. thankyou fer being somebody so wonderful that i respect u so much fer being there just listening. must remember me horr. u never remember, i kiss u ahh. haha.
i miss u sooo much.
and i lovee u too.<333




abdullah-*
shocked to see ur name here? haha. well, dont be. haha. an interesting way on how we met.
six months of friendship, like i've known you forever. thankyou fer standing by me through my dumps. the laughter and the poking of stomachs would always be remembered. thankyou fer cheering me up when i was down, being there to listen to all my cries and stories. telling me not to give up and to follow my heart wherever it takes me. thankyou fer making me believe
and look at life in a more positive way. i cant thank you enough fer the tings that were created.
thankyou fer being with me everystep of the way.
but still, i'm still cuter and i smell nicer than u. haha.
fan[a]bdullah. still remember this? its called creativity. haha.
thankyou once again fer making things possible.=))


pheww. long list eh. haha.
credits to all these wonderful ppl.
and many otherwonderful ppl not mentioned, u guys are still wonderful.

setbacks happened in 2005.
the month of november was the hardest fer me.
where i had to struggle with my studies, my family and the confusion.
but i bounced back from all of it despite from all the tears that i shed.
the month of pretention and denial.
holding on was so much harder than i thought.
it was so painful to see it happen in front of my eyes.
but i still had to hold on and pretended to be happy.
it wasnt that simple. haha.
cos i aint a good pretender. lol

i hope year 2006 would be a smooth journey fer me and all of us.
i shall put the bad moments aside and start afresh.
the best moments would always stay.
anything that happens, is always a blessing in disguise.

thankyou all fer reading this long and boring entry.
haha. happy new year.
and all the best fer the upcoming year.
i declare year 2005 over at the strike of midnight.
haha.
and welcome 2006.

takecare all.
anything msg me yahs.

mwaaahs.

fanaaa.

thanks fer the day dearest.

*bestfriends.*



*faara.me.yana.*



*haha. crazy*


its such a chilly night.
with more than two stars in the sky up above.
there is always one or two stars fer the past week.
lol.
yes. i observe all these things. haha.
they are beautiful things of nature. lol.

well, today i went out. haha.
after soo long being at home. just staying and rotting.
and play games haha.
met my dearest dearest bestfriend.
farah. aww. miss her shooo muchh.
glad its her off day today. and we gt to spend time together.
i was thankful fer that.

met her at about two and she gave me a hug.
"fanaaaa. i miss you."
haha. so sweet of her. of course lah, i miss her too.
lol.
took 190 to town.
as per usuals. talk. catching up.
her life. my life. the life. haha.
and i miss talking to her so much.

went to far east to have our lunch.
and there was one funny incident of the waiter.
ice-cubes dropped . and he shud just leave it there.
but he chose to sweep it using a broom and a dustpan.
then, we went there, hoping to do a decent job.
when the broom and the dustpan slipped off his hands.
and his stuck out his tongue. hahaha.
lol. farah and i just laughed at him.
we laughed continuously. haha.
how clumsy can he get?
its been a while since i really laughed so hard till i cried.
haha.

then more laughter when we reflected on funny incidents
that happened in the year. haha.
stuff that used to happen in school. lol.
laughed till our stomachs hurt and i start to cry.
cos i laughed too much. haha.
went around window shopping.
i wanted to buy the brown skirt but then...
i shall wait fer my allowance money from my sister tmw.
haha.

walked to wisma atria.
window shopped again.
then saw this indonesian guy whom farah said cute. lol.
i was like ding dong ding dong.
he was on his hp saying.
"enggak. enggak."
haha.

and bought a water bottle fer myself from fila.
haha. school's next week. haha. BOO!
went to ngee ann city looking fer a top.
but then, it was packed with ppl.
aiyo yo. so we got out of the packed packed place.
we need oxygen to breathe. haha.

went to popular at orchard mrt.
hoping to spend my voucher at popular.
but there were no interesting books around.
we scouted around the dictonary section.
and i took the indonesian dictonary.
and we started to talk in that language. haha.
it was funny. cos it sounded very weird.
so i dint get myself anything.
and when any bad things happen, we use the word.
brengsek.! which means damn in bahasa indon. haha.
i just found that out. haha.
so nw i can go cursing and using it. LOL.
just kidding.

made our way to city hall, millenia walk.
haha. miss that plc so much.
so i brought farah there. she said it was a lovely plc to go dating.
haha. it is actually.
wonderful atmostphere.
went to candy empire.
and the store was full of chocolates and candies.
goodness! sooo niceeee!
i wanted to buy a wonka chocolate .
but then i realised i cant eat chocolates anymore.
haha. healthy diet. lol.





went to raffles city and have dessert.
haha. talked again.
we just have so much to say.
and i dont think one day spent with her was enough. haha.
took the train back to cck to meet yana.
its been a week since i last saw her.
terserempak with juraihan.
and faisal.
faisal said. " fanaaa. kau maken tembam seh aku tgk."
haha. i knw i knw. i get that kinda comments from most ppl.
haha.

talked to dem fer a while.
and went to lot one fer a while.
then saw faris. haha.
he's getting taller already. lol.
took the bus back home.
i'm so tired. my legs may break any time.
haha.

i dread gg to school again..
somebody pls help me lah..
aiyerrr.
luckily my school skirt still fits.
but mum said it was too short. haha.
something wrong with her eyes.
cos its not.
LOL. it rhymes. hahhaa.
LOL. sorry. this is what u get out of fana when she sits at home fer so long.

i feel like doing sth to my hair.
my tangan so gatal to do sth abt it.
i'm very lazy to tie my hair when i go to school.
should have just cut it short and sweet. haha.
then wunt have to waste time drying my hair.
that wud b something to think abt. haha.

yay. i wud b out again tmw. haha.
bet its gonna be a fun day too.
cos i wud b surrounded by fun ppl. lol.
fun and cute ppl?
neh. i'm cuter. LOL.

hmm. i shall end my post now.
is so long. and i guess it bore u guys reading it.
hehe.
takecare all.

lots of love.
fanaaa.

i swear.

haha.
i'm a total screw-retard.

someone help me transfer stuffs from the pc
to the handphone.
haha.
i'm super blur. haha.
lazy to read the instruction manual. haha.
haha. yay. i gt somebody to help me. hehe.
yay-ness.
the person who can tolerate my blurness.
haha.

anyways, i'm here doing the thing.
what zaf called the banana thing. haha.

FIVE THINGS I'M AFRAID OF.
1) god. (of course.)
2) my olvl results.
3) watching horror movies.
4)not getting a boyfriend by the time i turn 21.
5)judgement day.

next 5 ppl who wud be doing this .
*dearest deenee.
*my.L partner.-ishaaa.
*gossip partner.-syazwani.
*ALONG.-abdullah.
*thrashofnovember.-yan.

haha. have FUN doing this.
haha. its soo freaking cold.
if i were to be at millenia walk, it wud be twice colder.
haha. i miss daa plc again. lol.
ahhhh. sejjuuuukkk. lol.

i thank my mommy fer getting me a new fone.
though is not a 3G fone which i wanted. haha.
and thank dada fer paying fer it. haha.
please start flooding my inbox ppl.
cos my inbox is empty. haha.
and change plan to free incoming call all day.
haha.
yay-ness.

dinner menu fer me today wud be
eating carrots. snowpeas. sawi. tomatoes.
haha. i call this a healthy diet.
without rice. cut down the carbohydrate intake.
haha. i was so lazy to run today.
sorry deenee darling.
nanti kita gi swimming k?
u knw how i love to scream when i'm on the slide. hehe.
boleh pekak telinga mu.
tapi, saya masih sayang sama kamu. haha.

i shud get an indonesian dictionary.
i've picked up some werds. haha.
and try to speak dem but i sound funny.
haha. but its fun though. lol.

i shouldnt have borrowed my dad's mp3.
cos my mom thought i bought it.
then she said. " asl kau beli? ingat bdae kau yg lepas mak nak belikan ipod nano."
haha. IPOD NANO. lol.
i wanted to say. " maaaak. ni saya tak beli. ni ayah punya."
haha. but then she'll kill me.
so otherwise, its the same. haha.

okaylahs. i wana eat the greeny plate full of vegetables.
haha. its nice i guess.
my sister got a job already.
and she's gonna give me allowance. haha. extra.
apart frm what my mom is giving me. LOL.
so kind of her.
haha. lol.

takecare all.
buzz me if theres anything yahs.
mwaaaahs.

fanaaa.

*ever lawa- cck stadium. haha.*


*we look tired. haha.*


" i'll never try to hold you back.
i wouldnt try controlling you.
if its what you want.
its what i want.
i want whats best fer you."
-its hard to say goodbye. (celine dion and paul anka.)

its raining cats and dogs and frogs and monkeys and donkeys and kangaroos.
haha. skip that part. very very lame. hahaks.
basically, today i woke up early to meet dearest ika.
she was free today . it was my lucky day i guess. hehe.
we went to the stadium and ran. haha.
one round and already berpeluh-peluh.
then sprinted fer 100 meters. haha.
and then decided to STOP. haha.

hang around the area.
and sat at the see-saw. haha. so nice.
talked and then screamed.
the usuals, once the conversation starts, there was no ending to it.
haha.
i loveee her.
thanks fer spending the day with me sygku.
sayang banget sama kamu. lol.

hmm. i watched the O.C yesterday.
did i tell u that the guy who played ryan is super duper panas!
boleh meletop!
haha.
and there is ekaaaaaa layter. haha.
and deen, i hate fifi tu. jahatnya beyond werds.
masyallah. haha.

yan told ika that he was afraid to tegor me.
haha. padahal we are neighbours. haha.
lol. the one whose mom said that i was the maid.
haha. yahs. that one. hahaks.
then like ding dong ding dong.

i'm really hungry.
i want to eat but mama dint cook
shes at a meeting till petang. haiyahs.
sister's out looking fer a job.
dada's werking. hmm.
i tink i will be eating maggi noodles.
haha.
no more fastfood or fried food.
but maggi mee is no different.
it is still unhealthy. haha.

okaylah. i wanna play game. haha.
to occupy the boring time.
haha.
cya ppl.
loveeeee u all.
mwaaah.

fanaaa.

masih terserlah ayumu, walaupun marah.

*part two of boredom. haha.*


firstly, happy holidays to all.
and happiness cos everyone decides to stay at home.
mum and dad both aint werking today.
its so called family time. haha.

in the morning, had breakfast with family at home.
lontong oii. haha.
i miss the times where we sat at one table together.
and everyone's mood was okay. haha.

slacked at home and went out to have our lunch.
at westcoast. haha. so nice lahs the food. haha.
then off to causeway point to search fer dad a new fone.
but then the his contract have not ended and we had to pay extra 100 bucks.
he decided to wait fer a lil while longer till his contract ends. haha.

mama asked if i wanted a new fone. haha.
i wanted the N70 fone but very expensive.
i chose 7610. but a lil too bulky. haha.
but then i feel so guilty when my mom is so nice. haha.
i'm stil deciding if i shud get one.
cos sis is getting the motorola pink fone tmw. haha.

i'll be alone at home tomorrow. bummer.
and farah's not off . haiyohs.
tmw i'll be going fer a run at the stadium. haha.
i hope its not too hot fer me to run tmw.
i shall go on a balanced diet. haha.
survive on plain water and apples. haha.
temptation of eating fastfood is always there. LOL.
i'm human wad. haha.

hmm. tonight, i wud be watching the O.C.
haha. continuation frm where i stopped yesterday.
and then clean my room.
and then read a book. haha.
then more vcds. lol.

dia is on suria now.
haha. ekaaaaa!!!!! sheesh.
i saw dewa sang the song pupus just nw.
the guitarist was super super cool. haha.
and the song was nice too.

i want to sign on cooking classes at the community centre.
haha..at least i can masak nasi.=)) hehe.
at least sth. but i guess its time fer me to start learning and stop
depending on my parents fer things. haha.
this happens when i reflect too much. haha.
and i shud get involved in outdoor activities and get my body werking.
like playing floorball and sports.
street soccer wud be fun too.
its been a while since i played soccer.

RUGBY games in school. aww. miss those days.
where they boys would blame isha and me fer pushing dem so hard on the ground.
the team spirit of the class.
the shouts and screams fer us when we score a goal.
the 2.4 run which the gerls hated the most.
the run around the school gate and we hid to rest from running when we aint allowed too.


*me.viceprincipal. HAHA. and dini.*


* qeela. fara. yana. myself and mr lee. HAHA.*
can he stand closer pls. haha.


CLASSES. sleeping in classes.
laughing in class and not paying attention.
hearing zaki's lame jokes. which are not funny. but very very lame. haha.
the scoldings we used to get from the humanities teacher.
i miss the canteen food.
and of course, the viceprincipal. haha. there is a double meaning to that.
haha. and our ever-cute-so-loving accounts teacher,
mr james lee.
most would agree with me that he is cute. haha.

simply saying, i miss school.
i would start appreaciating things when its gone.
see lah. i must not be like this.
sometimes, i do take things fer granted.
and i guess i should stop doing so cos i'll miss the things that i took fer granted
when its no longer present with me. haha.

i miss school.
i miss farahdeeeee!- my best best best trusted trusted friend.[she's my bestfriend.]
i miss qeeeelaaaaa.- my best gossip partner.[she can stand gossips with me. haha.]
i miss liyaanaaaa.- my best partner in crime. [we get into trouble together.]
i miss ishaaaaa.--my best lesbian partner. [she goes around touching ppl's asses and legs. haha.]
i miss deeneee.- my best best advisor. [she gives great advice.]
i miss wanieeee.- my best lauging partner.[ i lovee her laughter. lol.]
i miss ikaaaaaaa.- my best partner in food purposes. [ haha. she can teman me eat. haha.]
i miss feeqa.- my best partner in crime.[ alpha. betta gama crew formed with yana.]
i miss kim.- my best best chinese classmate. [ we laugh till we get scolded. haha.]
i miss miraaa.- my grrl whom i'm close with. [ i'll see u in three months baby.

and i miss 4DYNAMITE.
the laughter. the tears. the fun we shared.
i wont ever ferget dem. i wont ever ferget you.
ppl who rawked in 4D.
kimberly.liyana.yuexiang.evelyn.farah.khadijah.isha.wanie.yana.feeqa.hajar.haini.yati.
yana(theshortone.). rayson. zaki.muhaimin. yanhan. ridzwan. mirza. saravanan.
faisal. ryan. dayah. roziana. faris...

haha. long lisst eh.
gtg now. performing prayers.
anything sms me aite ppl.
takecare.

ps: those who miss me, i oso miss u all. haha.

lots of loveeee.

fanaaa.

urgh. i hate it.

*purple.white.lol.*


*soo cuteee.*



do you knw whats its like to have a sister who is so lazy.
and she does nothing but sits and laze around the house.
and do you knw whats its like fer having such an irritating sister who cant
give a helping hand in cleaning the place up.
well, i do. and i hate it. she's so lazy.
i just cleaned up the place and she's messing it up.
even worse, SHE'S LAZING AROUND.
how maddening can this get. heck.
i wish i was living alone and i dont have to clean up after her.
she's just so PEMALAS.
what she knows is serakkan the place..
urrgggghhhhhh!

okay. i feel better.
sis, i dont care if ur reading this.
cos its true ur very lazy and ur getting on my nerves.
dont make me throw u out of the room and make u pay rent fer it.
HAHAHA.
okay. i've let out my steam. haha.

well, basically today there is a wedding to attend.
one cousin tunang-ing.
one sanding-ing. haha.
it was kinda rushing as we had many places to go
the place was crowded and so i was lazy to take food.
haha. and now i'm hungry.
i played with this cute lil grrl.
she;s so pretty and cute.
plus she's friendly. haha. thats the fun part.

actually, its a boriingg day. haha
very very boring. lol.
there is princess diaries after this.
i'm gonna watch it.
then, gonna reorganise my wardrobe after my sis gets out of the room.
and watch vcds..... the O.C
haha.

tmw...? i dunno what to do again.
goodness me. i wish i was doing something to occupy my time.
and farah's not off tomorrow.
mayb i shud hit the gym by myself tmw.
i need to excercise cos i've been eating and eating.
and ppl are calling me tembam. haha.


plans fer tonight is to clean up my room.
then watch the o.c. yay!
then read a novel. haha.
eyyy!!!!! tonight got hindustan.
must watch. hahaha.
last week gt salman khan.
this week hope have lah eh.
hahha.
crappssss.

hmm. guess i'll go now.
i wanna eat. haha. skipped my breakfast and lunch.
haha. degil again.
hope i wont get gastric tonight.
takecare all.
anything tag/ sms me.

mwaahs.
lots of love.
fanaaa .

aku redha.

" the deepest feelings never take wing for
they live in words unspoken"

and i guess some words is best to be left unspoken.
saying it wud just make things even worse
and more complicated one cud ever imagine.
just like things are meant to be left unsaid.
isnt it right? cos i guess its all true.

how i wish i can turn back time and pause it at our favourite parts.
then we'll skip the goodbyes.
-some quoted from lyrics of tiger lily.
haha.

i was thinking of closing down this blog actually.
then i shall drift away.
and hide and run.haha.
hide and seek. lol.

i guess i wud be rotting at home today.
and continue watching the O.C.
reorganise my wardrobes maybe.
i'll see what i can do.
and stop reflecting on what happened.
it has come to a point where i shouldnt reflect anymore.
haha. reflecting-sickness. lol.

lalalala.
i just realised something.
setbacks are part of life.
whats life without setbacks. haha.
lame isint it? haha.
its a challenge to face it. and must be strong.
haha. i'm turbogrrl. hahaha.
k. this is lame. lol.

okaylah. i guess i gtg now.
cya ppl.
takecare all dearests.

"be careful not to confuse the limits of your new field
of vision with the limits of the world."

lots of love hugs and kisses.
fanaaa.

dont deny me. you dont knw what i'm going thru.

morning to all.
i woke up at ten today.
i slept at six am yesterday. haha.
i was down with a very very bad stomachache.
Gastric in the middle of the morning.
how bad can it get...?
then i wished i wasnt so degil cos i skipped my meal.
haha. i wish i wasnt so degil.
the pain was unbearable.
pheww. but i tried to fall asleep and i did..

mommy woke me up to teman her fer breakfast.
at mcdee. haha. its been a while since i ate there.
then there was a party there.
the chinese guy who was the crew staff of mcdee was so cute.
the way he mingled with the kids was just so cute. haha.
so gentle. just lovely.
i like seeing guys who can layan small kids.
it shows me the sensitive side of dem. they can b gentle if dey wants to.
aww. it was a very pretty sight.

then went to the market with mummy.
haha. i was thought to differenciate 'sawi' and 'kailan'
haha. yes. i am that bad. lol.
but i'm still young. there is still time to learn. hehe.
hmm. what should i do today..?
mayb i shud take time off from home and go out.
going out alone aint that bad right..?
hah. maybe i should.

till then, i'l update at night aites.
takecare all.

"miracles are meant to happen to those who believe in dem."
as quoted. lol.

lots of love.
fanaa herself.

"missing you is a crime.
not until you know."


*pizzaaaa.*



*me and yanaa.*



haha. thats me of course

updated.
i just got back from toa payoh frm meeting yana.
and we sure do have loads to talk abt.
her. me. life. and the list goes on.
met her at toapayoh at 6.30 and off to have our dinner and pizza hut.
the pizza was very big that we dint finish it.
we were forcing ourselves to finish it up. lol.

then sth happened at pizzahut. lol.
i shant elaborate on that . lol.
yana gave me my belated present. lol.
it was so sweet of her. i wasnt expecting anything.
but anyways, thanks yana.=)) lovee ya.

walked around that area and saw ppl line dancing.
it looked fun though.
we made our way back to the train station.
it was packed. so we decided to go all the way to marina bay so we cud get seats.
haha. and we dint take as much pics cos of the short time spent.

despite tha short time spent, there were many things to talk abt.
and i was glad she asked me out.
or else i wud be bored to death at home.
haha. next week wud be another boring week i guess.
no plans as usual.

haha. rotting rotting.
lol.
i need to buy new contacts cos mine expireddd.
and new loose powder from watsons.
haha. lalala.

" engkaulah pelindungku,
engkaulah sumber rezekiku.
di waktu sakit kau sembuhkan.
di waktu lapar kau beri makan.

jangan biarkan aku tanpa pimpinan.
pimpinlah aku ke jalan yg benar.
kepada engkaulah harapanku.
janganlah hampakan perasaanku."
-cinta agung by qathrunnada.

till then. i'm off to more vcds.
haha. the OC is good though.
the guy who played ryan is so cute.
haha. innocent looking guy. lol.
watch till dawn breaks again.
i hope i wunt be down with gastric again.
lol.

takecare all.
happy holidays.

lots of love.
fana herrself.
10.52pm.
haha.

friendship holds love it its hands.

*haha. daa sidetable.*



*haha. daa bags.*



*haha. dnt blame me. i was so bored.


haha. i cleaned my room today. i CLEANED my room today.
haha. i was like an angel. i even vaccumed the room. haha.
its very rare to see me so hardwerking at home u knw.
but i was soo bored at home. so i decided to clean my room.
haha.
from the sidetables to the every corner of the room.
my sister is so lazy to clean up. so i have to do it. haha.

the room is neater. haha. yayness.
i'm so happy i cleaned my room. haha. semangat pulak tu. hehe.
skips skips. lol.
i read up on allergies today.
a part from reading abt tonsils.migrane.anemia and fever. lol.
call me nuts fer reading all these. haha.
i was so bored. i dint knw what to do.
grrlfrens werking as usual.
that explains my boredness everyday. lol.

and tomorow..? dont ask.
haha. i bet i'll rot as well. haiyo-yo.
i was supposed to go KL with fatin's family.
but i declined the offer.
cos my cousin is gonna get engaged this 25thdecember.
i wunt wanna miss it fer the werld. haha.

school's reopening in less than two weeks.
which means to a new year. year 2006.
i'll do my new year resolution soon. lol.
haha. like i'm disciplined enough to carry dem out. hehe.
mira and i misplaced our school uniforms. haha.
its somewhere around the cupboards. lol.
i have to alter the skirt. haiyahs. lecerness.
but i must go find it first. haha.

i watched 'DIA' just nw. haha.
second telecast. but i just love the show.
first, it occupies my boredom as i wud be cursing the mak tiri fer being so bad.
haha.
secondly, i likeee eka. lols. like how lah the name is spelt. haha.
and erfan is cute. or irfan. lols. haha.
hensemm bangeeettt. hahhaa.

its almost twelve midnight. haha.
i'm not sleepy yet. cant really sleep nowadays.
i guess i shall occupy myself with the medical books.
and then vcds. haha.
watch till dawn breaks.
i still wanna go popular and buy books.
haha. i need company. lol.
how i wish farah wasnt werking.
and monday is not her off day .. aiyo-yo.
my wish is to enjoy before school starts.
i hope it wud cometrue somehow. lol.
and watch one last movie.
haha. lalala.
nehh. i'll be fine . haha.

"people come into each other's life by chance.
but maybe not really by chance"
as quoted.

then it is called destiny...

till then i'll end of here.
save me from boredom. lol.
sorry fer the boring entry today.
lol.
takecare all.
and remember.
"follow your heart wherever it takes you to"
-again. as quoted. haha.

mwaahs.

lots of lovee.
fana herrself.
friendship holds love in its hands.

mira. and me.



qeela. and. me.



happy three friends.



qeela.fana.mira.



fana.mira.




the day was SUPERB.
i met farah at the bustop at twelve plus plus to send her off to werk.
goodness. i miss my bestfriend soo muchh!
its been a week since i last saw her.
and i do agree that absence makes the heart grow fonder.
haha. i'm no lesbian. but then, yah.
i love her even more and more when i dont see her. haha.

the usuals. the stories abt her. abt me. abt ppl.
haha. then lalala. laugh here and there. haha. it was the usual.
met amirah who was gorgeously dressed.
took 190 from cck and off to paragon.
visited qeela, cat and mid who were werking.
sent farah off. aww. that was the not so nice part.
went fer lunch with qeela and mira at cineyleisure.
and sent her off back to werk. haha.
we are sooo free visiting ppl. haha.

then, off to far east to buy shoes fer the school shit.
we just bought coloured shoes. haha.
its only fer 3months. i'll endure and try to enjoy my stay there.
we bought a bag each too. haha. i spent alot.
and mom only give me 30 dollars. haha. not enough.
thanks to mira who topped up a few dollars fer me.
it was very sweet of her lahs.

it was four thirty then and met farah fer her dinner break.
looks like she had company to teman her. haha.
her voice was so happy when we said we wanted to teman her.
pity my bestfriend.
went to cineyleisure again, this time burger king. haha.
chatted. laughed.
and met a look alike of somebody. haha.
really really look alike. lol.

sent farah off to werk again and off to orchard mrt.
heading to city hall.
i had a date with that sweet grrl of mine.
took the shuttle to millenia walk.
we sat infront of the waterfall.
its been a while since i've been there.
i miss the time when i ate ice-cream with a bunch of great ppl there.
so, mira and me just sat down and talked again.
haha. we wont have enough of chatting.
waited fer qeela to arrive as she had ended her shift.

she was lost. haha.
told her to take the bus taknak.
kedegilan. lol. but she reached somehow.
haha.
i tried to fold a paper aeroplane and it looked distorted.
haha. it cudnt fly. lol.
of course, we played with the water around us. haha.
then on the way back, i saw a lego sale at that shopping centre.
haha. i want it badly. it costs 60 dollars. haha.
and my in my pocket, there is oneee bigg holee!
means that i'm broke. haha.

then we made our way to cck.
and i bought my book there.
i bought one on "cure your allegies."
and another, a guide fer childhood illnesses and injuries. haha.
medical books. haha.
i bet i'll have fun reading dem.
qeela bought flashcards and mira bought a pencil case.
haha. i still have 40 dollars of the book voucher.
hmm. i'll spend it on more medical books. lol.

then off to the basement to drink sth to quench our thirst.
watermelon juice and sugarcane drink. haha.
soooo niceee!
thanks to qeela fer the treat.
then back home. haha.
my legs are killing me.
been walking to and fro town just nw.
haha. but it was worth every trip.

and faizal msged.
lol. jeng jeng jeng.
he asked me a lame question again.
so i gave him a lame answer. haha.
fair and square right. haha.

newsletter from ngee ann poly came today by post.
and nursing requires at least a c6 fer science. haha.
and my physics paper was shit. haha.
so i dunt think i wud even qualify. but then i'm still hoping fer the best.
haha.
doesnt mean i wud be cleaning ppl's butt. lol.
maybe i will . haha.
well. i shudnt even think abt it lahh. lol.
let the result tell. and then i shall decide.
lol.

okaylah. i wanna go and read my book.
dunt knw if i'll be gg out tmw.
haha.
i'll be sleeping late due to the fact i wud be glued to the illness books.
haha.
anything tag me or sms me okay ppl.
takecare all.

mwaahs.

lots of loveee
fanaa herrself