just a little bit.

hey all. i'm finally back.
3days 2 nights at costa sands pasir ris
from wednesday to friday was a blastt.
i had great fun.
and another 3days 2 nights to johor bahru was great as well.
from friday till sunday.
so much fer holiday-ing.
i miss people around me.
but i'm baccckk. LOL.

wednesday afternoon, headed off to costa sands by cab.
met my cousin, haris and my sissy's qamarul. haha.
put stuffs in the chalet and off to downtown with haris.
to EAAAATTTT. haha.
we dint have breakfast. and my packing was done so last minute.
i forgot that there was a chalet. haha. muddle-headed me.
after downtown, headed back and played taitee. lol.
i am getting okay at it. at least better than my first attempt.
haha. i'm a no more blur block at that game. haha.
fatin, my other cousin came at abt 6 plus with my parents.
slacked the whole day watching tv and play cards.
stole food from my sister's class barbeque.
went to the park nearby and watched the stars.
the wind was great.
shared stories with two lovely cousins.
and they did too.
we sat on the rocks and just talked abt things.
it felt wonderful.

thursday was another great day.
my nieces and nephews came from a swim.
they swam till they went blacccckk!
and then off to tampines mall to buy things fer the bbq at night.
haris went back home. but fatin continued staying haha.
deeyana came over and hang out with us.
went to the beach again. and this time i played in the sand.
doodled names. running. dipping my legs into the water.
and once again, REFLECTED.
after that, went to pasir ris to meet qamarul to pass the escape theme park tickets.
i got two free tickets. and i wanna go there by the end of the month.
haha. anyone free do contact me. haha.
got to knw him better. he's a great guy.
compatible with my sister. and i admire their great friendship.
they are bestfriends. but feelings inside them are being kept.
but he's cool. LOL.
bbq at night. i ate alot. haha.
i must train to cut down my food intake. been eating alot lately. LOL.
watched a scary chinese movie and off to bed.

friday, packing up was done.
and we checked out at ten plus plus
went to eat at westcoast.
teman-ed fatin to pack more clothes as she's following my family to JB.
visted my granny sekali since they are neighbours. haha.
off to JB after dada solat jumaat.
plugged myself with my mp3 with new songs. haha.
i was very happy. hahaa.
and i had so many news abt faizal. LOL.
it was funny. hahahhaa.
and he was just who i expected him to be.
somebody negative i guess.
there was a long story to that. haha.
went window shopping and ate.
off home and read my malay novel.
haha. it was an okay book.
i have read better books which made me cry in the end.
haha.

saturday, ate brunch at secret receipe.
i had fish and chips. i dint eat the cakes or brownies.
cutting down. haha.
and then SHOPPIIINGGG.
haha. i bought a couple of stuffs fer myself.
and i was pretty contented. haha.
denim jacket was pretty. haha. i bought it. LOL.
slept and watched tv.
went to hairdresser and jeng jeng jeng.
LOL. SHEESSHH.
my sis bought a semi electric guitar.
and shes showing it off. LOL. kerreekkk.
haha.
gossips. fatin's life.
my life.
my cousin talked abt faizal.
then i just LALALALA.
ate, watched tv and booo.
SLEPT.

sunday, went to eat prata before gg back.
haha. plugged into my mp3
and again, REFLECTED. too many to be done.
and here i am. HOME.
haha.
the long break gave me a chance to reflect and think.
and i'm glad i thought many stuffs thru.
it is part of life i guess.
all abt choices and thinking stuff thru.

hmm. what shall i do tmw..
haha. i want to watch the promise.
i heard its good though. haha.
mayb i shud catch it. LOL.

23rd of disember, maybe i wud be gg KL.
with fatin's family.
just me and my sister with her family.
i hope faizal's family wont be following.
if he is, i wont be going. hahaa.
escaaaapeeeee! hahaha.

bad news to all. 3mths posting was out on friday.
haha. and too bad i was accepted.
millenia institute, bartley campus
taking commerce subjects.
wish me luck ppl.
i achieved my mom's dreams.
though it werent mine to follow or start with.

..........................
and to him, i feel betrayed still.
you just wont change would you?
till now, you see that it was my fault.
it was never yours.
i'm sorry cos it was my fault.
it was my fault was i chose you.
it was a big mistake.
what happened between us was a big mistake.
and it was a fascade tht u put up.
it is history. and i wished what happened between us
never happened.
the reality is i dont love you anymore.
i thank god fer showing me the correct path.
i'm sorry again.


to shukry, thanks fer everything u've done fer me.
without you, there would be no me now.
i thank you again.
i cant ever thank you enough.
thank you once again.

to grrlfrens: i miss all of you grrls.
and i dunt knw to cry or smile when i hear the news abt ika.
i dont want her to go thru another period of suffering.
what she went thru was enough.
i guess, we cant do anything.
but we can pray fer her happiness and safety yah grrls?
i love you grrls so much.
and i miss u grrls to bits.


" i dont wanna walk away or let you go and you know it.
i'm not telling you all this to make you sad.
its not about the tears we cried.
its abt how hard we tried.
to give a little more to see the other side."
- jessica simpson.

last note, all thebest to those taking their results tmw.
stay confident.
all the best. i pray fer the best fer all of you.

takecare all.
i'll be back to update.
in the mean time, sms me or tag me if theres anything yah.
mwwwaaahs.

fanaaa.