jangan biarkan aku tanpa pimpinan.

i told ya i was bored. lol

some of the tings i got. lol.









"biarpun pudar kelam masa silam.
benar katamu, hidup penuh pura."

what is past is the past.
it will remain as history.
but it will remain as a chapter of my life.
it may hurt.
but i guess, i have to face it.
just that my past hurt so badly.
its bleak. and my heart is leaking in pain.
that is history for me.

basically, last two days i spent going out.
i cant stick myself at home.
never stayed home these holidays.
on thursday, went out fer pizza.
on friday, went to play badminton.
haha. semangat betol.
but i dint play as well. haha.
but abdullah and kaihui played great.
infact, like professionals.
thats something why i always look up to dem.
great bunch of ppl with great talents.

*the baju is so lawa. lol*








and today, went to kak wahidah's majlis nikah.
he was there.
i dint even bother to look at him.
it was just a waste of time.lol.
this is stalker nomber two. haha.
the majlis went on well.
and the bride and groom were in white..
my cousin start to talk abt when would we get married. haha
and wedding plans. lol.
we are young. but we wonder. haha.
i want a white baju songket. lol.
and a cute husband. lols. hahhaa.
neh. i stil have a long way to go.
haha.














* i was even bored-er. lol.*








went baq at abt 6 plus.
and watched mulan at 8pm. haha.
i was so bored at home. booo.
really bored that i took pictures of myself.
haha. that explains.
self-obsession. haha.
i plugged myself to listen to songs.
and goodness. FLASHBACKS.
i hate it when this happens.
LOL. `REALITY.

faizal has stopped msg-ing me already.
alhamdulilah.
it wud be better like this.
i'm much much happier. lol.

monday wud be gitar lessons with "benyot."
haha.
then i have a date with farah.
together with mr smells nice. hahaa.
its farah's off day. and of course, she wants to be with me.
haha.
i miss her okay. off to town again i guess?
nothings planned yet.
but definitely going out. haha.

and goodness what was i thinking.
"YOU ALMOST FCUKED HER."
and i still held on.
trusting you.
i feel so betrayed. till now, the pain is still there.
but its over now.
thank goodness.lol.
but to think back, i was naive.
sheesh.
haha.
i'm okay now.
really.
not pretending.=))
lol.

"mengapakah sukar meyakinkan cinta.
yg terbiar layu disirami duka.
sedangkan diriku.
umpama pengemis.
mengharap kasihmu itu."
-mamat.

takecare all.
mwaaahs.

fanaaa.