someone else's dream.

hmm. today was not like any other day i guess.
my grandmother was admitted to the hospital at 1am today.
it was a shocking news fer all of us.
the first two ppl to know abt it were my two bestest and trusted friends..

and today i woke up late. i was sick last night.
i caught the flu bug. haha. my nose is killing me.
fever is on and off. but now, i feel alright.
hope tmw i will feel even better.
i've been like a snail hibernating under the blanket fer the night.
hahaa. i feel like a snail. lol.

at twelve, mama ajaked to go fer lunch at pizza hut.
haha. i've been craving fer it fer suchhaa alonngg time.
but i just ate a pan pizza cos i dint have that much of appetite i guess.
haha. and when i get better i want stuffed crust pizza. hahaha.
after lunch, we took the train to khatib.
we made our way to my aunt's place again. hahaa.
and i played gameboy with my nephew. lols. it was fun though.

went back home at abt 4 plus and i slept till 6pm.
i was very tired. hahaks.
and my nose was giving me problems.
but i dint take medication, i was too tired to reach fer it.
haha. "psst. wanna bite me issit?" lol.
i slept with my contact lens on. haha. dasar pemalas.
hehehe.
when i woke up, dad was already baq home and we went to the hospital together.

seeing my dad in that kinda state worries me.
he is easily distracted and will start to panic if anything goes wrong.
i guess he is worried abt my grandmother.
she was admitted in the CCU cardiac section.
it hurts me when i see many tubes on her hands.
and the injection, goodness, i wish i cud replace her fer gg thru the pain.
it was just too painful.
her hands were red and swollen.
ouchhh.

she looked cheerful and she could talk at least.
i'm glad.
at least she aint with the oxygen mask anymore.
but there is a tube which enables her to breathe properly.
so i went around the room and investigated the apparatus. hahaks.
hmm. i want to be a nurse when i grow up. lol.
somebody will kill me fer saying this. hahaks.
"no nursing fer you pls" sounds farmilliar?lols.
hahaha.

then, we sent our ever-worried grandfather home.
haha and met the anaksedara of mine who is only 5 years old and always screaming into our eardrums.
lol. so i bite her. hahaks.
till she screamed at my ear. hahaks.
i think it reached abt 20khz. almost deaf.
lol. whatever eh physics.
goodbye to you already. ahakas.

hmm. and tmw, i dont knw what to do.
cos i wont be sticking my butt at home as i'm always out.
every single day.
that gives me a chance to escape from housewerk haha.
but today my mom was at home so i had to petik kacang panjang.
lol. sweep the floor. cuci toilet. lipat baju. lols.
she said i very pemalas already so must do sth to make her stop saying tht. haha.

and i guess the sentosa thing tak jadi again.
or may be postponed to some other time cos most of the gerlfrens would be werking.
so i would spend a lonely december. lol.
its okay. i dont want u all to take leave on that day.
nanti takda gaji tau. hehe.

last thing, i dislike makciks who like to kepo and poke their nose into my affairs.
just now at the hospital, there were so many other things to talk abt..
when she asked " that one your boyfriend ah?"
basically my cousin showed her a pic which i took with someone.
practically she saw it on the computer. err.....
but doesnt mean that it was my boyfriend or what.
make me soo malu and paiseh.
but its okay. thats the truth. haha.
i got no boyfriend. its the truth. lol.

i have to get myself out of the house tmw.
cos if not i wud have to do housewerk . lol.
when my sis does all the mess and i have to clean up after her?
she doesnt even lift a finger to clean up the house.
mum is biased at times. but what can i do? i'm living under her roof.
which means i obey her orders.
and live under her dreams.

"i'm living under somebody else's dream"
and i guess most of you would knw what i'm talking about.
lol. till then, takecare all.
wish me luck fer more job huntings in weeks to come. lol.

lots of love.
fanaaaa.