drifting away.

ENGLISH WAS SHIT.
PHYSICS WAS SHITTIER.
i think both papers were hard. wahhh.
can cry seh do the physics paper.
as i looked through the tenyear series, there were no repeated questions.
haha. just my luck to spot the wrong questions. shitness.

english i did question one. asl boleh letak jer.
social studies facts just came out. hahaa.
but i guess it was relevant. i think?
the feeling just suckssss when all the papers were hard.
for the past days, nothing seems easy.
and i hate to say this but i'm beginning to give up
i shal not go to poly. things are just not going the direction i hope it would flow.
i'm falling apart. HAH.

MATHS paper two. just hope for the best.
i cant seem to care anymore. maybe i'll retake or maybe i wont.
haishh. i hate feeling thisway.
nobody can save me. not even superman.
i guess i have to find my way out of this myself.
and i shall do it alone.

GEOG and POA. hoping to do well in these areas.
i'm so tired sitting for papers.
how i wish i cud put an end to all of this.
i may be strong before, but not now.
this dampen my spirits to move on.
part of me wants to give up.
the other says i shouldnt.
darling angel, can you pls tell me what to do.
cos i'm so lost right now.
a path with no direction that is. haiz.

my mum just told me to move on. but i know she;s worried for me.
i am worried for myself. i hate to hurt her and dada.
they have been motivating me from the start. i hate to disappoint them.
but everything is soo unfair.
things have been happening to me and i hate the consequences of it.
i hate it. i hate it. i hate life. i hate life.
urghhhh.

but i guessS this is REALITY. shitness.
i wont be looking forward for my results next year.
i shall just forget about all the hopes and dreams i built for myself.
itu hanya angan angan semata mata.
i cant make it can i? i cant i cant.
i keep pushing myself but nothing will turn out right.
yes, its frustrating.
very frustrating. i hate giving up.
but i dunno how long i can stand.
i am no smart grrl.
no i'm not. i'm not. i'm not.
i just break everything i had.

i am weak. i am weak.
urghhh.
things are gonna get worse. worse worse.
but i guess, nomatter how i hate to get up,
i have to .
and i have to do it alone.
urghhh. be stong fanaaaa!
thats the hardest thing that i have to do.
being strong. haishhh.

i hope god will help me through all my misery.
i feel so terrible.
terrible. horrible.
what the heck should i cry for.
i feel so terrible.
urghh.
help me back on my feet.
it just sucks to give up at a point like this.
urghhh.

my head is spinning and i guess i need to cry everyting out.
scream under my pillow and cry.
URGH.
anything, just flood my inbox or tagboard.
takecare people.
dont be like me.
pls. takecare of yourselves.
cos i wont.
LOL.

fanaaa.