its not goodbye.

he's someone wonderful and kind.
he thought me the meaning of life.
what we shared dint survive.
when he started to say goodbye.

it all happened too fast.
he left me for someone else.
why must it all happen to me.
i thought we had "chemistry"

but i was to blame for being so stupid.
to believe every word you said.
i believed that you wont ever leave me.
but you did, you set me free.

i couldnt pick myself up to say..
those words to you.
he said goodbye, without me knowing why.
"i'm sorry darling." its all that he could say.
but why darling why.
why must you leave and go away?

i cant help it but miss you.
i know its wrong but its true.
i cant bring myself to tell you the truth.
it was my mistake on my part, a lie which made us part.

i thought it was just us two.
there aint no three.
but things change when there was someone else.
someone who i cant imagine, an angel like yourself.

i know i've denied when i said i didnt love you.
but when you left, i felt something was missing.
something which i never felt before.
it was when i realised,
i had fallen for you.

i tried to pick up bits that we've shared.
we may be apart but memories surrender.
i may be hurt and bruised.
pictures and texts, it made me even weaker.

you left as you said goodbye.
tears may flow, but so what?
you dont know that i've lied.
even if i dint, it would still be goodbye.

i'm sorry for lying. but i did it for the best.
but things started to change again when you started looking for me.
"darling, she left me" thats what you said.
it was when i had to go through the real test.

i'll decide soon enough.to be or not to be.
and i hope you wont leave again like you did.
cos if you do, there aint anymore second chances.
it will be last. there aint no three.

this time, i will not lie.
i wont deny the fact that i'm in love with you.
i have fallen for you again.
indeed.
darling, i loveeeee you.


- creation by mzfana.
title: its not goodbye.
(just writin for fun. heee.)