* stressnesss.*

* i just wanna screeaaaaammmmm.* urrrggghhhhhhhh.
hahaks. weee . i feel lighter. hahaks. light as a lighted splinter. hahaks. = HYDROGEN. haha.
wadda hell. hmm. i'm tired. my brain is stopping. no productivity anymore. i guess its because of oxygen cannot enter my blood. due to too much excessive information. hahaks. CHEMISTRY. wadeverness. haha.

*yawns.* its only 2.50pm and i'm sleepy. i feel like sleeping. ahaks. nooo. cannot. must push harderrr. urrrggggg. haha. was so stressedup last night cos of my mother. so stressness. haha. slept at 3 plus. again, on my table. hahaks.. soo tired already.. luckily, ionic bond msged me at 4 am. what were u doing so early ah?? hahaks. and i went back to sleep after that. my waist and neck hurts like crazy. hahaks.

i woke up at 9 am today. considered late fer me. started studying again. SCIENCE. from TEN all the way till 2.30PM. my mind really going crazy. formulaes going on. bla bla bla. i recap my physics again. its my 4th time recaping. i did on kinematics, dynamics, moments, mass, density and volume and workdone. yada yada yada. and fer chemistry, i did my particle theory, macromolecules which i have a hard time doing and also, atmostphere. hmm. my brain is worn out. due to friction. haha. see. whats wrong with me. i'm crapping so much.

mum and dad went to malaysia. thank god i dint follow. if not, my eardrums will BURST. FANAA. ASL KAU TAK BLAJA. yada yada yada. hahas.. i'm gonna continue fer another 5 hours doing my maths. hahaks. a KILLER SUBJECT. i feel like killing MATHS. hahaks. then another 3HRS doing accounts. hahaks. and at 2 AM, do my HUMANITIES.. i'm down with selesema again. i keep getting sick and i dunno why. i seldom have the appetite to eat anymore. i eat only twice or sometimes, once a day. my mom is killing me. slowly chopping me into pieces. hahaks.

monday, school reopens. a new chapter of my life begins. TERM 4. wednesday, science practical. hope i wont screw anything up.. hope the dropper wont drop into the testube and hope the bunsen flame would light up.. god willing.. i'm so stressed at home that i wish i dont have to be at home.. i would just cry.. thats all i can afford to do.
I KNOW EXAMS IS AROUND DAA CORNER.
MAMA... PUHLEEZ. TRY AND UNDERSTAND ME.
I'M TRYING MAMA.
I CANT BE AS GOOD AS KAKAK.
I KNOW THAT. YOU KNOW THAT.
ALL I NEED IS YOUR SUPPORT MA..

i wish i could say it to her.. i cant. i cant.. look at the bright side, i have ppl around me. my grrlfriends, my bestfriends. supporting me in whatever things that i do. i really appreaciate these ppl. they make my life worth living. not forgetting my ionic bond, who always have to hear my complains. heheh. sowiieee horr. and abdullah pesan me " air mata tu bukan murah" hahaks. i have to keep that in mind.

k laa. wanna do maths.
anything just buzz my fone k.
i wanna talk to ppl.
hahaks.
love ya ppl to bits.
THANK YOU EVERYONE.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
MUAH MUAH MUAH.***
miss reality**

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resahku tak engkau hiraukan
diriku engkau lupakan"
-exist dalam kenangan.