( belaian mu.)

in daa morning, mama woke me up saying that she's going to work. she pesaned to wake up. haha. i just salam her with my eyes semi opened. i was super tired. i slept fer half an hour more when my sister woke me up. hahaks. went to siap siap. then fone rang. it was muhaimin. he wanted me to help him angkat benda DNT. so went to his house and went off to school after that. his mom was so cute. hahaks.

reached school at 9am. drank white milk. and assembled in the AVA room. then, we were directed to the science labs. when we were outside the lab, we saw a glass block. then i was like ' oh shit' i look and feeqa and i screamed to her. ' FEEQAAAAA. AKU TAK TAU BUAT'. everyone was so happy cos they knew how to do it. hahaks. i was struggling with daa physics stuffs. like shit.. struggled. hahaks. i repeat. muka struggled. crammped up. hahaks.

chemistry, titration. hahaks. wadeverness. never learn oso. but i wrote neutralisation reaction. hahaks. i got pale pink ppt. so nice. hahaks. i was admiring daa colour. haha. i dint hear any pop sound when there was supposed to be pop sound. hahaks. something wrong with my ear. haha. and they asked to calculate concentration? wadever. teacher havent cover yet. i suspect it is a pure chem paper. urghh.

yana and farah waited fer me. although they were in shift one and ended early. went to eat at long john silvers. hmm.. then we were discussing abt something which happened in their science lab.. pitiful incident. then, we talked abt old times back in sec3. remembered when cikgu nurul sent me, yana and daa rest of daa malay class out. stand at one corner and must do frog jump all daa way to daa other end of daa building. haha. yana fell on her knees. i laughed at her. haha. it was embrassing. but, those were daa days. haha. she will like scream ' LOMPAT KATAK' hahaks. eeee. paiseh giler. haha.

then , went home. i'm so tired. feel like sleeping. but have to study my english. tmw is english prelims already. must must get good grades. i feel like going out on friday.... go and rileks my mind. hmm. i planned my study programme fer this two weeks already. haha. i got lesser topics to cover. but, i have to admit, i'm really tired. really tired.
wanna break downn already. feel like giving up when it is already ending.

urghhh. be strong. thats what kept me going.
i'm not sure if i want to go to JC anymore.
abdullah said was rite. i should follow my dreams.
dreams to go to nanyang poly. and pursue in nursing.
maybe? hmm.

prelims two is very important to me.
very very important.
i screwed my prelim one.
2 o lvl passes. 34 points.
haha. ROJAK.
now, i want 6 o lvl passes 15 points. haha.
wadever fana.
wadever.
i'm never gonna make it am i?

nieways, i heard sum stuffs abt him.
i saw him wearing my watch and shirt.
wadever. and i heard he is daa same.
treating grrls daa same way.
haiz. i cant say anyting. i just don want him to hurt his grrl
daa way he treated me. i hope i hope..
i dont feel anything for him.
a year of relationship. so what?
i was treated like dirt.
i remember how i used to worry abt him.
and cry in daa school toilet. haha.
but, i'm glad things ended and we went our separate ways.
if not, i dunno how long would i be suffering. haha.
i've forgotten abt him long ago..
just that, after what i heard, flashbacks came to my mind.
haha. wadever fana. i'm happier now. so much happier.
no more slitting of wrists.
nothing.. no worries. * weeeee.*

and ppl, mug now .
exams are near.
good luck fer all.
search fer boyfriends or grrlfriends after o's.
haha.