*grrlies*

instead of paying attention, we were playing at daa baq of daa class. and my dear yana look so cute. hahaks. look at her. haha. i had a great day in school. i always do. only that i feel tired today. daa past week had been so hectic. i dint have time fer myself. pheww. hectic week.


*recesstime*

tomorrow, its already prelims two. i am 75 percent prepared fer it. i knew i tried my very best to cover topics. daa rest is all up to me tmw. insyallah.. maths, my congurency and similar figures eeeyeerrr. haha. so rabak. hmmp. my angles also. all over daa place. haha. aiyoness. hmm. social studies, i plan to do industralisation. but muhaimin told me to cover up my sec4 topic as well.. i'll do it later at midnight maybe.. mirza called to ask fer maths consultation over daa fone. haha. so funny. then sara asked me fer help for social studies. and muhaimin called to talk abt stuffs.. I'M JUST AS STRESSED AS YOU ARE MEAN. haha.


* outside daa class*

who isnt stressed at this moment. i'm afraid i wont do well. really afraid. i had enough failing my prelim one. ROJAK. haha. 2 O lvl passes. haha. aiyo yo. must do better this time. i hope i hope. puhleeezzz. haha. with 3 distinctions at 3 B's haha. DREAM ON FANA. i doubt it would ever happen to me. i feel drifted. i dont talk to my family members anymore. i stay up at night alone. nobody to talk to. nobody to keep me company. i guess thats life and reality... and thats when my family drifts away.. i'm not alone am i? i hope not.


* just us*

basically, now, i am tired. my brain wanna stop and shut down. at times, my brains wanna reboot and reformat. hahaks. screw lose already. i wanna give up. but i cant. i cant. everytime i see my sister's o lvl cert, i'll start crying. thats how bad it is. she scored 4 A's... in a JC. i'll get worried. worry if i dont do as well as her. and if i dont, i know what i'll get from ppl at home. damnn. education here is really tough and competitive. but i guess i'll have to be brave and face it. must must. i'm superwoman. haha. wadever fana. wadever.


* smileee.* aww. my darlings.

mom is still daa same. pressure at home is too much. reallie too much.
uhh. wish i was superwoman. its so painful living at home.
stress i get. i have to commit myself to so many tings at home.
i cant take it. AHHHH . i wanna screammm.
puhleez. somebody understand me..
stressful life. hectic. and i'm drifting away.


*fun in class. weee.*


puhleez pull me baq.
puhleez save me from all these.
somebody, puhleez save me.
from all this shit.
i wish i could run away.
but this is reality.
i wish somebody...
face it with me.

*miss reality*

good luck fer ppl taking prelims tmw.
all daa best.
i'm drifting away.
haha.